I've been feeling a bit nostalgic lately and going back over books I bought way back in 2016 and 2017 as well as reading my green text on the early exercises of P&P posted on here. I read a chapter 4 post and the memories of that night came flooding back to me. It took me 6 hours to write a function comparing the size of two ints. It was 3am and I was so frustrated I started crying. I developed a fear of bools. Its absolutely hilarious to me now as I sit here reading a random book, silently ripping apart the authors code because they stored an pointer to an enum.
My mantra at work is "git gud". I can relax a bit when I've "gitten gud", then I can "git gudder". I honestly believed I hadn't really changed at all but lately I've started to realise that I can "just do stuff now". 6 years ago I bought Programming Game AI by Example by Mat Buckland. I tried to read it and follow along with the code but it went completely over my head as I had no experience with inheritance and I was convinced OOP was evil (because I didn't want to understand it). Recently, I picked the book back up and not only implemented the code from snippets with no problem but changed it as I was going along, grumbling about the authors use of singletons and lack of interfaces.
2 years ago I read the online book Ray Tracing in one Weekend and attempted to multi-thread it. It was a disaster and no matter how many times I read MSDN or StackOverflow I just couldn't get my attempts to work. Earlier this year I had another go and got a hacky version working in an afternoon. It's not perfect but it worked and I just "knew" how to do it.
3 months after starting as an intern at Rare, I asked a senior in a catch-up "when do you stop feeling like shit?" and his response was "you don't, but over time it won't be as bad". I pressed him for an actual time for "over time" and he just laughed and said "3 years". It's been 4 years since I asked him that.
It took me a very long time to stop feeling like a waitress/receptionist and start thinking of myself as a programmer.
Thank you Bjarne for giving me the tools to change my life.
Hello LP! Congratulations on completing such a gargantuan book. I know this is a belated bravo, and you've moved onto the harder one. Still, I just discovered your blog as I've recently picked up my dusty copy of PPP and was looking for online resources. Like you, I got this book in 2016 and timidly attempted it several times, each time getting just a few chapters deeper. I believe I stopped after exhaustingly getting FLTK to work correctly. Many years have passed and now I'm transferring to my upper division classes for computer science. I've had a lot of false starts with my self-teaching journey and my college journey. For those reasons, I want to really solidify the learning I've done this past decade. I'm glad and appreciative that you've documented your journey so thoroughly.
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